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2006.03.22 16.49
how can he say those things to me. how can he be so sweet and kind? he shouldn't be that nice. he's completely unavailable, avidly so, and then he goes out and says the things that he says. ahhhh! i can't ignore it. it's exactly what i would like to hear. it's the gentleness and the belief in me that i crave. it's what i don't have. he says it but is unable to hold me. and then i feel guilty for wanting him to hold me. but how can i not. he sees things. he sees the things that i see, or the things i wish i could. it's crap that's what it is.
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2006.03.22 13.22
I stole the baby while he was taking a pee pee
I have an interview in a little over and hour. This morning I've done nothing. NOTHING! Actually I did brush Sammie, work with he and Honey on the whole sit stay thing, and smoked.
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2005.11.21 09.11
THANKSGIVING!!! Whoo-ooh
I get to see cousins, kanines, oceans, delicious food items, SLO, lots of sparkling apple cider, the ranch out back (including the very scary cows),of course a Chinese resturant and mountainous splender on the side of the freeway.
And I'll get to hear gossip so many times over, the growls of five...maybe even six puppies, the clanging of silverwear, the television, showers constantly because there are only two showers for the 30 people, the screaming laughs of my aunts.
And my sources tell me that my ballerina aunt will be fat. Hahahaha! If you knew her, you would find that incredibly funny.
The things I'm not looking forward to:
-my weight obsessed family seeing how much weight I've gained
-getting sat down and "tell me everything about you right now"
-my brother not being there
Other than that I'm Stoked.
Mood:  ecstatic
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2005.10.25 11.40
Bette Davis. She's my hero. I adore her. She's fantastic.
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2005.10.18 15.07
interesting
1. Go into your LJ's archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
"Perhaps we'll disappoint the conservatory director by disenabling him to kick me out."
Doesn't that put us in a very specific time and place. Fucking Mark Booher. I hated him.
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2005.10.15 18.44
It's my mama's b-day
and I edited my friends on myspace. people that needed to go, went.
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2005.10.03 20.58
Cancer
So my uncle has a brain tumor. I'm trying to be a big support for the family. I just feel like FUCK! I just want to scream cry yell shout and curl up into a little ball...maybe even throw up a little bit. How can I do that! I can't. There are others who have more of a right to those actions than myself. Instead I'll just sit listless, waiting to hear that he has past away.
FUCK!
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2005.09.24 16.17
Breckin Meyer
I just realized he's extremely good looking right now. He almost replaces Luke Wilson for me... Almost. When did he grow up from Clueless?
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2005.09.02 17.39
Sometimes...
You're focused and know what you should be doing.
Mood:  enthralled
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2005.08.25 09.58
I've been distracted by "Careless Whisper"
It's just a brilliant classic 80's song. The horns. The deep meaningful cheese that they call lyrics. "Something in you're eyes, calls to mind a silver screen, love has said goodbye." Oh George Michael... I know. I know your pain.
Mood: chipper
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2005.08.17 11.35
Today is my friday
But I wish that it was my Saturday. I've been working far too many days in a row. I'm sick of work.
Mood:  drained
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2005.08.14 19.11
Boris, You Idiot!!
I gave my two weeks today. It's offical.
Mood:  nervous
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2005.07.28 10.35
Please note
I'm no longer a blonde or a redhead.
Elise you might have a twin again. That's all I'm saying.
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2005.07.26 13.12
Paul Harper did my numberology chart...aparrently I'm a 3
xpaulharperx: You are creative, expressive and blessed with some type of talent that is guaranteed to put you in the spotlight at least once in your life. You have an upbeat personality and others find you easy to identify with. You also have the potential to become the symbol for an entire culture or generation. Many beloved entertainers, columnists, movie stars and inspirational leaders in the world are number 3's.
spice2thesenses: awww
spice2thesenses: that's really cool
xpaulharperx: Your creative and performing talents are also augmented by your astounding ability to understand and empathize with others. You are the number that knows how to "give the people what they want." For this reason many of you also end up in sales or advertising as your innate charm enables you to "sell ice to an Eskimo."
spice2thesenses: eeek
spice2thesenses: that's true
spice2thesenses: gross
spice2thesenses: but true
xpaulharperx: You often rise to the top of any career that you choose but the old cliche "it's lonely at the top" also applies to you. This is because threes are often fated to be loved by many but not by one special other. However most as most 3's are naturally philanthropic and giving of their hearts, many are quite satisfied with the mass attention and social popularity that is often part of their life path.
spice2thesenses: That's really sad
spice2thesenses: that's my grandma right there
xpaulharperx: In fact, the highest attainment of your life path is the polishing and perfecting of your talent and sharing it with the world. Unfortunately as you do so you may find yourself leaving a lot of broken hearts along the way. A challenge for many 3's is also not to become too jaded about love.
spice2thesenses: ouch!
xpaulharperx: As you are very independent and light on your feet you may have a problem finding a life partner that understands your ambitions or that is willing to share you with so many other people. Even if you don't achieve fame, 3's tend to be at the very center of their community and enjoy a thriving social and love life. In fact having too many romances during one lifetime is characteristic of a 3.
xpaulharperx: As you always put talent or career first you might also find yourself to be the odd person out in a number of love triangles during your life. Usually this is because a career calling forces a 3 to abandon a partner who cannot keep up with them. Sometimes their fast-paced lifestyle does not offer them the time to cultivate a relationship. For this reason you also might find your relationships to be more unorthodox than others might; finding soul mates who are already attached or that are much older or much younger than you.
xpaulharperx: As you have a very spiritually sophisticated view of life you embrace change without the fear that is experienced by most of the other numbers. Often this causes you hardships financially, as you are the number that is most willing to gamble or take a big risk to launch a new project.
spice2thesenses: This is so true
spice2thesenses: Wow!
spice2thesenses: I'm amazed
xpaulharperx: You are capable of making large amounts of money, but also capable of spending it all just as fast. As you are not very materially minded you are not necessarily concerned about this but your carefree attitude about money often alarms your family and business associates.
xpaulharperx: Your tendency to live for today and not for tomorrow is a blessing as well as curse for you as you journey along your life path. The drawback of this is that you are easily distracted from your responsibilities.
xpaulharperx: Your tendency to live for today and not for tomorrow is a blessing as well as curse for you as you journey along your life path. The drawback of this is that you are easily distracted from your responsibilities.
xpaulharperx: The rare number three that is not successful in life has probably lost his or her focus. The positive aspect of this tendency to live in the here and now is that you rapidly bounce back from any type of misfortune and like a chameleon have an uncanny ability to reinvent yourself throughout your life time.
xpaulharperx: theres more, but i have to use the phone right now
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2005.07.15 20.54
13 and half hours at work will give much time to think
For the first time, in a real long time, I don't feel close with my family. Their ideas of what I should be are definitely conflicting with how I feel I should be. Many times I have turned to my family for advice and support, but now I see that their advice conflicts with my happiness.
Perhaps this is a good thing for me. I've relied so much on my family...adored them in fact, but they are just people. People that don't really know me anymore. People that I might not really know anymore. I find it's easier to limit my contact with them.
Mood: drained
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2005.07.11 21.39
ummm...
I love the french language and good movies.
Mood:  dorky
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2005.06.21 11.19
Jodi Scott Elliott's Aliases
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Your movie star name: Wasabi Cashews Bill
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Your fashion designer name is Jodi Florence
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Your socialite name is Dirt Seattle
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Your fly girl / guy name is J Ell
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Your detective name is Tiger Del Oro
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Your barfly name is Walnuts Chardonnay
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Your soap opera name is Scott Magellan
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Your rock star name is Jelly Bellies Bullet
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Your star wars name is Jodsqu Ellchr
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Your punk rock band name is The Blah Scissors
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2005.06.20 22.52
Why is it that desire makes the desirer less desirable to the desired? True Story
When I could give a shit, look who's right over there trying to be cute...and guess what? I don't find them cute. They try to make jokes in my same humor. It is everything that funny isn't.
And there are those who think I'm fucking amazing, unique, "unlike anyone else they have met" yet they are just like every boring person I meet. Sometimes I think "you don't fucking know me."
Sometimes it's nice to be desired, but then they just seem less than par.
I hardly ever answer my phone. I just don't feel like talking unless I'm the one making the call. But when I call I never leave a message. Just don't feel like it. I blow people off. I drop people. Not because I specifically mean to; I just don't have the energy or desire.
Lately, I've been mean. Real mean. No filter between what I'm thinking and what comes out of my mouth. You might call it honesty. But truly, do I need to be that honest that often?
But then...then I find something special in someone. Suddenly I'm trying to be cute, but it's stupid...I try to be that unique person but I'm just like every other person in the room. In fact, I'm annoying, less than par.
THE RULES OF KARMA
-the people you treat like absolute shit are the sweetest to you
-the people you worship treat you like shit
-Guess whose been a bitch lately?
Disclaimer-Not everyone in my life is either adored or shit on. Many times I do not answer messages or phone calls of those I adore. I'm a flake. Most of you know this. I don't want you to think...man Jodi's blowing me off. Not true.
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2005.06.20 10.14
So I have much more of a regular access to this interweb and I find myself unable to throw myself off. Far too many hours are wasted away in a world that doesn't exist in any tangible form. Here I am. Just before work on this thing, this beast. I don't even want to go to work, but the idea that a fat paycheck is waiting for me calls me in. I do wish at times that I was wealthy enough to not work. If I were, would I waste all my valuable time on here? Instead of this passionate artist I've become a consumer, one of the masses, as well as lazy.
Something must change.
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2005.06.18 17.30
To remain aloof and mysterious is far safer for some...some might call them a coward. I've been that kind of coward before. I might become one again. But this behavior can ban you from some beautiful things.
Don't we all have damages that dictate our faults.
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2005.06.15 16.48
The snorting Boston Terrior...or Terrorist
We just went out for a walk, Boone, Brooklyn, and myself. Brooklyn attacked this long grassy tumbleweed looking bush. She hid. Sneak attacked. And now she is snorting, desperately trying to hock a out a long piece of grass. Sad.
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2005.06.13 20.29
Is she awake?
Fast asleep for six months. Trying desperately to wake, to care again. Throwing myself into cold water, but I'm still stuck in a blah dream. Nothing truely matters anymore. But then...perhaps two days ago I've awoken. No one can know for sure. Time will tell. Perhaps I will give a damn again. That would be nice.
Mood:  lethargic
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2005.06.07 20.59
Stolen from Julip
01. Reply with your name and your astrological sign and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
07. Put this in your journal (... or else).
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